Losing a Whole Year (Jenkins/Cadogan)

Losing a whole year
Losing a whole year
I remember you and me used to spend the whole goddamned day in bed
Losing a whole year
Hiding in your room we'd lay like dogs and the phone would ring like a joke that's left unsaid
Losing a whole year
Rich daddy left you with a parachute
Your voice sounds like money and your face is cute
But your daddy left you with no love
And you touch everything with a velvet glove and
Now you want to try a life of sin
You want to be down with the down and in
Always copping my truths
I kind of get the feeling like I'm being used
And now I realize that you never heard one goddamned word I ever said
Losing a whole year
Losing a whole year
I took your stuff and put it in the basement
When I found out what the smile on your face meant
I've seen you pop that check, DIG
Craning your neck at the car wreck, and
It always seems the juice used to flow
In the car, in the kitchen, you were good to go
Now we're stuck with the tube
A sink full of dishes and some Aqua Lube
And I remember you and me used to spend the whole goddamned day in bed
Hey, why
Losing a whole year
And if it's not the defense then you're on the attack
When you start talking I hear the Prozac
Convinced you've found your place
With the pierced queer teens in cyberspace
When you were yourself it was tasted sweet
Sours into a routine deceit
Well this drama is a bore
And don't want to play no more
Why, why
Why, why
Losing a whole year
I remember you and me used to spend the whole goddamned day in bed
Hey, why
Hey, why

Narcolepsy (Jenkins/Cadogan)

I'm on a train, but there's no one at the helm
And there's a demon in my brain, who starts to overwhelm-whelm-whelm-whelm-whelm
And there it goes, my last chance for peace
You lay me down, but I get no release
And I say I, I try to keep awake
I try to swim beneath
I try to keep awake, but I
I can feel this narcolepsy slide
Into another nightmare
And there's a demon in my head who starts to play
A nightmare tape loop of what went wrong yesterday
And I hold my breath 'till it's more than I can take
And I close my eyes, I dream that I'm awake
I try to keep awake
I try to keep awake
I try to keep awake, but I
I can feel this narcolepsy slide
Into another nightmare
  (Guitar solo)
I read dead Russian authors, volumes at a time
I write everything down except what's on my mind
'Cause my greatest fear is the sucking sound
And then I know I never get back out
And there's a bone in my hand that connects to a drink
In a crowded room where the glasses clink
And I'll buy you a beer and we'll drink it deep
Because THAT KEEPS ME FROM FALLING ASLEEP
I said, how'd you like to be alone and drowning
How'd you like to be alone and drowning
How'd you like to be alone and drowning
How'd you like to be alone and drowning
Still I find this narcolepsy slide, slide
Into another nightmare
Keep awake
Keep awake
Keep awake
And I can feel this narcolepsy slide...

Semi-Charmed Life (Jenkins)

Do do do, do do do do do, do do do, do do do do do
Do do do, do do do do do, do do do
I'm packed and I'm holding
I'm smiling, she's living, she's golden and she lives for me
Says she lives for me, ovation
Her own motivation she comes round and she goes down on me
And I make her smile like a drug for you
Do ever what you want to do coming over you
Keep on smiling, what we go through
One stop to the rhythm that divides you
And I speak to you like the chorus to the verse
Chop another line like a coda with a curse
Come on like a freak show takes the stage
We give them the games we play, she said
I want something else
To get me through this
Semi-charmed kind of life
Baby, baby I want something else
I'm not listening when you say
Good-bye
Do do do, do do do do do, do do do, do do do do do
Do do do, do do do do do, do do do
The sky was gold, it was rose
I was taking sips of it through my nose
And I wish I could get back there
Some place back there
Smiling in the pictures you would take
Doing crystal meth will lift you up until you break
It won't stop
I won't come down, I keep stock
With a tick-tock rhythm, a bump for the drop
And then I bumped up I took the hit I was given
Then I bumped again, and then I bumped again, I said
How do I get back there to the place where I fell asleep inside you?
How do I get myself back to the place where you said
I want something else
To get me through this
Semi-charmed kind of life
Baby, baby I want something else
I'm not listening when you say good-bye
I believe in the sand beneath my toes
The beach gives a feeling, an earthy feeling
I believe in the faith that grows
And the four right chords can make me cry
When I'm with you I feel like I could die
And that would be all right, all right
When the plane came in she said she was crashing
The velvet it rips in the city we tripped on the urge to feel alive
But now I'm struggling to survive those days you were wearing that velvet dress
You're the priestess, I must confess
Those little red panties, they pass the test
Slide up around the belly, face down on the mattress, one
And you hold me
And we're broken
Still it's all that I want to do, just a little now
Feel myself, head made of the ground
I'm scared but I'm not coming down
No, no
And I won't run for my life
She's got her jaws just locked now in a smile but nothing is all right, all right
And I want something else
To get me through this...life
Baby I want something else
Not listening when you say
Good-bye
Good-bye
Good-bye
Good-bye
Do do do, do do do do do, do do do, do do do do do
Do do do, do do do do do
The sky was gold, it was rose
I was taking sips of it through my nose
And I wish I could get back there
Some place back there
In the place we used to stay
(Do do do, do do do do do, do do do, do do do do do
Do do do, do do do do do)
(Do do do, do do do do do, do do do, do do do do do
Do do do, do do do do do)
I want something else

Jumper (Jenkins)

I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
You could cut ties with all the lies that you've been living in
And if you do not want to see me again
I would understand
I would understand
The angry boy, a bit too insane
Icing over a secret pain
You know you don't belong
You're the first to fight, you're way too loud
You're the flash of light on a burial shroud
I know something's wrong
Well everyone I know has got a reason
To say
Put the past away
Wish you sould step back from that ledge my friend
You could cut ties with all the lies that you've been living in
And if you do not want to see me again
I would understand
I would understand
Well he's on the table, and he's gone to code
And I do not think anyone knows
What they are doing here
And your friends have left, you've been dismissed
I never thought it would come to this
And I, I want you to know
Everyone's got to face down the demons
Maybe today
You can put the past away
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
You could cut ties with all the lies that you've been living in
And if you do not want to see me again
I would understand
I would understand
I would understand
  (Guitar solo)
I would understand
I would understand
YEAYEAYEAYEAYOW
Can you put the past away
Wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
I would understand
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
I would understand
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
And I would understand
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
I would understand
I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend
And I would understand

Graduate (Jenkins/Cadogan)

Can I graduate
Can I graduate
Can I look into the faces that I meet
Can I get my punk-ass off the street
I've been living on for so long
Can I graduate
To the bastard talking down to me
Your whipping boy calamity
Cross your fingers, I'm going to knock it all down
Can I graduate
Echo fading, we can't let go
She goes walking by in slow mo'
Sell your heart out for a buck
Go on, fade out, before I get stuck
Talking to somebody like you
Do you live the days you go through
Will this song live on long after we do
Can I graduate
Can I look into the faces that I meet
Can I get my punk-ass off the street
Won't die on the vine, I want to knock it all down
Can I graduate
Echo fading, candle blow
Did you flash out long ago
Cross my fingers, I don't KNOW
Someone poked you down below
  (Guitar solo)
Can I graduate
Can I graduate
Can I graduate
Can I graduate
Can I graduate
Can I get my punk-ass off the street
Can I look into the faces that I meet
I'm not waiting here for you to die
(Oh my)
Will this song live on long after we do
Oh my

How's It Going to Be (Jenkins/Cadogan)

I'm only pretty sure that I can't take anymore
Before you take a swing, I wonder
What are we fighting for
When I say out loud, I want to get out of this
I wonder, is there anything I'm going to miss
I wonder, how it's going to be
When you don't know me
How's it going to be
When you're sure I'm not there
How's it going to be
When there's no one there to talk to
Between you and me
'Cause I don't care how's it going to be
How's it going to be
Where we used to laugh, there's a shouting match
Sharp as a thumbnail scratch
A silence I can't ignore, like the hammock by the doorway
We spent time in, swings empty, don't see lightning like last fall
When it was always about to hit me
I wonder, how's it going to be
When it goes down
How's it going to be
When you're not around
How's it going to be
When you found that there was nothing
Between you and me
'Cause I don't care how's it going to be
How's it going to be
When you don't know me anymore
And how's it going to be
Want to get myself back in again
The soft dive of oblivion
I want to taste the salt of your skin
The soft dive of oblivion, oblivion
How's it going to be
When you don't know me anymore
How's it going to be
How's it going to be
(How's it going to be)

Thanks a Lot (Jenkins/Cadogan)

It's all in your mind, she said the darkness and the light
The clock, it bleeds for you, but you never got the time in right
I woke you up and I slit the throat of your confidence
And we laughed in the night
And I felt all right
Woo!
All hands on deck boys 'cause this ship was made to sink
Your swabber salutes you now, but I know what he's thinking
I woke you up and I slit the throat of your confidence
And we laughed in the night
And I felt all right
Thanks a lot
Thanks a lot
(Don't even know)
Thanks a lot
The clothes she wears misfit, and she's nervous when she speaks
Her zombie mom and dad live in a separate house of freaks
I woke you up and I slit the throat of your confidence
And we laughed in the night
And I felt all right
Thanks a lot
Thanks a lot
(Don't even know)
Thanks a lot
  (Guitar solo)
I'm the one for you
'Cause I know all the dirty things you like to do
I'm the fear in your eyes, I'm the fire in your flies
I'm the sound that's buzzing around your head
Thanks a lot
Thanks a lot
Don't even know
Thanks a lot
Thanks a lot

Burning Man (Jenkins/Cadogan)

The rise and fall of my sloppy love
The smatterings and splatterings
THEY'LL GET YOU
I'm not the one you were thinking of
Maybe you thought I'd call, instead of crashing down your hall
Hold me down, but I'll find out
You know you will never get what you...need
Blue Diamond, strike 'em anywhere
First we caffeinate, then incinerate
WE'LL GET YOU
And sparks will fly in the summer air
Did you pull out of your stall, maybe I'll see you after all
Hold me down, I want to find out
We say no, 'cause I live my life like a burning man
Like a burning man
A burning man
Like a burning man
And I won't get enough until my legs are broken
The stars that fall, shining in a void
Life is not to fear, life is to enjoy
HE'LL GET YOU
Oh, Mr. Death catches all someday
Baby, I thought you'd call, or leave a light on in the hall
Hold me down, but I'll find out
We say no, 'cause I live my life like a burning man
Hold me down, but I'll find out
We say no, 'cause I live my life like a burning man
Like a burning man
A burning man
Like a burning man
And I won't get enough until my legs are broken

Good for You (Jenkins/Cadogan)

Hey, will you stay awhile
My smile will not mislead you
'Cause I've been alone, my faith turned to stone
Still there's something in you that I believe in
Close to your pierce, I go wild and fierce
Still I let you be, I feel you next to me
'Cause inside I feel, a wind starts to blow
I'm taken in your undertow
Everything is fine
I'm lonely all the time
'Cause all I want to do is be there for the things that you're going through
Well, is it good for you, is it good for you
'Cause you haunt my nights when I don't know where my life should go
Well, is it good for you, is it good for you
Hey child, please stay a while
My smile will not mislead you
'Cause I've been without, I go wild with doubt
I grab at you, I can't stop grabbing at you
'Cause I feel you cross my mind in disarray, intoxicated ricochet
There's nothing wrong
Just don't take too long
'Cause all I want to do is be there for the things that you're going through
Well, is it good for you, is it good for you
'Cause you haunt my nights when I don't know where my life should go
Well, is it good for you
Well, is it good for you
  (Guitar solo)
All I want to do is be there for the things that you're going through (Going through)
Well, is it good for you (Good for you)
Well, is it good for you (Good for you)
'Cause you haunt my nights when I don't know where my life should go (Life should go)
Well, is it good for you (Good for you)
Well, is it good for you-eah-eah-eay

London (Jenkins/Cadogan)

Through the satellites, I fight with you
That local brew is spillin', I know just how you spend your time
I WANT TO GET MY HANDS ON HIM
Somebody's party in a London flat, you're where it's at and I know
You want to see me lose my mind
I'm tired of chasing after you, the residue is jealous
See me on the dark side of your mind
I WANT TO GET MY HANDS ON HIM
To a club that's pounding in the London rain
The world could end, we wouldn't hear it
I know just what's on your mind
I see the way your face has changed
We're no good for each other
You tricked me into coming here
So let go, I don't want to go to London
I told you I don't care, I don't want to go to London
To live there, I don't want to go to London
All your friends afflicted, I don't want to go to London
She's addicted
I saw you with him, I know where you've been
That nose is broken wide open, your way has got me out of line
I WANT TO GET MY HANDS ON HIM
You're so sick just to make me prove, it takes a fight to move you
I know just what's on your mind
It's been this way a thousand years, we torture each other
So why the hell did you call me here
When you know, I don't want to go to London
I told you I don't care, I don't want to go to London
Live there, I don't want to go to London
All your friends afflicted, I don't want to go to London
She's addicted
  (Guitar solo)
I don't want to go to London
I told you I don't care, I don't want to go to London
'Cause you're not there even when I see you, you're somewhere else in London (I don't want to go to London)

I Want You (Jenkins)

The suckers lose themselves in the games they learn to play
Children love to sing but then their voices slowly fade away
People always take a step away from what is true
That's why I like you around
I want you
Oh, do you do you do you do you do you do you do you do, you make me want you
An open invitation to the dance
Happenstance set the vibe that we are in
No apologies because my urge is genuine
And the mystery of your rhythm is so feminine
Here I am and I want to take a hit of your sent 'cause it bit so deep into my soul
Ooh, I want you
Yeah, you do you do you do you do you do you do you do you do, you make me want you
Oh, you do you do you do you do you do you do you do you do, I want you (Send me all your vampires)
And I can't get enough
You and you and you and you
Oh, I can't get enough
And I can't get enough
Oh oh you you ah
The village church yard is filled with bones weeping in the grave
The silver lining of clouds shines on people Jesus couldn't save
You want to know how deeply my soul goes
Deeper than bones
Deeper than bones
And I can't get enough
I, I, I, I
Oh, I can't get enough
And I can't get enough
You and you and you and you you
Oh, I can't get enough
After we did it by the window sill
Smoke rings drift into the midnight sky
Presently in the quilt that your mother made
And a candle burns to fight off the gloom
You said to live in this way is not for the meek
And like a jazz DJ you talk me into sleep
(Send me all your vampires) I said, there will be no regrets when the worms come
And they will surely come (Send me all your vampires)
Oh, do you do you do you do you do you do you do you do, you make me want you (Send me all your vampires)
Yeah, do you do you do you do you do you do you do you do, you make me want you (Send me all your vampires)
I want you (Send me all your vampires)
I want you (Send me all your vampires)
Send me all your vampires
(There will be no regrets when the worms come)
Send me all your vampires

The Background (Jenkins/Cadogan)

Everything is quiet, since you're not around
And I live in the numbness now, in the background
I do the things we did before
I walk Haight Street to the store
And they say where's that crazy girl, you don't get drunk on red wine, and fight no more
I don't see you anymore
Since the hospital
The plans I make still have you in them
'Cause you come swimming into view
And I'm hanging on your words like I always used to do
The words they use so lightly, I only feel for you
I only know because I carry you around
In the background
I'm in the background
Words they come and memories all repeat
I lift your head while they change the hospital sheets
And I would never lie to you, no, I would never lie to you, no
I felt you long after we were through, when we were through
The plans I make still have you in them
'Cause you come swimming into view
And I'm hanging on your words like I always used to do
The words they use so lightly, I only feel for you
I only know because I carry you around
In the background
'Cause felt you long after we were through
  (Guitar solo)
When you come swimming into view
And I'm hanging on your words like I always used to do (...come swimming into view)
The words they use so lightly, I only feel for you (...come swimming into view)
I only know because I'm way, I'm way in the background, I'm in the background

Motorcycle Drive By (Jenkins)

Summer time and the wind is blowing outside in lower Chelsea, and I don't know what I'm doing in this city
The sun is always in my eyes
It crashes through the windows, and I'm sleeping on the couch, when I came to visit you
That's when I knew, that I could never have you
I knew that before you did
Still, I'm the one who's stupid
And there's this burning, like there's always been
I've never been so alone
And I've never been so alive
Visions of you on a motorcycle drive by
The cigarette ash flies in your eyes, and you don't mind
You smile, and say the world doesn't fit with you
I don't believe you, you're so serene
Careening through the universe, your axis on a tilt, you're guiltless and free, I hope you take a piece of me with you
And there's things I would like to do, that you don't believe in
I would like to build something, but you'll never see it happen
And there's this burning, like there's always been
I've never been so alone
And I, I've never been so alive
And there's this burning, I-
There is this burning, YEAYEAYAW!
Where's the soul, I want to know
New York City is evil
The surface is everything
But I could never do that
Someone would see through that
And this is the last time we'll be friends again
And I'll get over you, and you'll wonder, who I am
And there's this burning, just like there's always been
I've never been so alone, alone, and I, and I've
I've never been so alive
So alive
I go home to the coast, it starts to rain
I paddle out, on the water, alone
Taste the salt and taste the pain, I'm not thinking of you again
Summer dies and swells rise
The sun goes down in my eyes
See this rolling wave, darkly coming to take me, home
And I've never been so alone
And I've never been so alive

God of Wine (Jenkins/Cadogan)

Every thought that I repent, there's another chip you haven't spent
And you're cashing them all in
Where do we begin to get clean again
Can we get clean again
I walk home alone with you, and the mood you're born into
Sometimes you let me in, and I take it on the chin
I can't get clean again
I want to know, can we get clean again
The God of Wine comes crashing through the headlights of a car that
Took you farther than you thought you'd ever want to go
We can't get back again
We can't get back again
She takes a drink and then she waits
The alcohol, it permeates
And soon the cells give way
And cancels out the day
I can't keep it all together
(It's the moon, stuck underneath the moon)
I know I know I know I know I know I know I know I can't keep it all together
(It's the moon, stuck underneath the moon)
And the siren's song that is your madness holds a truth I can't erase
All alone on your face
Every glamorous sunrise throws the planets out of line
A star sign out of whack
A fraudulent zodiac
And the God of Wine is crouched down in my room, you let me down, I said it
Now I'm going down
And you're not even around
And I said no no no no no no no no...
I can't keep it all together
(It's the moon, stuck underneath the moon)
I know I know I know I know I know I know I know I can't keep it all together
(It's the moon, stuck underneath the moon)
And there's a memory of a window looking through I see you
Searching for something I could never give you
And there's someone who understands you more than I do
A sadness I can't erase
All alone on your face

Last update June 18, 2009.